I Think I Found the Problem

This picture just seems to represent how I'm feeling these days. Head down in a toilet is not good, but if you've found the problem, perhaps it's a start.

I've been trying to reach out for some positive changes. I went to a 12-step meeting, which was a bit of an eye-opener. It was OA-HOW, though, and I don't know if that will be right for me. I'm cautiously optimistic, however. Also, C and I watched this movie at church, and it was really revealing, at least for me. We've been trying to work on our relationship. And, I think I feel healthier, mentally, when I spend part of my time in service to others, instead of all of my time obsessing about myself. I went up to my mom and dad's house this weekend and helped them assemble/install some garage storage - that was good. And since my only true skill seems to be organizing, I've also offered to help someone at church, who has some physical limitations, with some organizing.

I started reading Isaiah - I have been confused and disturbed by this book in the past, but this time is different...thoughts are just falling over one another to get written down in the margins!

I am grateful for:

1. C - when I got home yesterday, he had dropped off the recycling, made the bed, done his laundry (and R's), and the kitchen was not bad. Then when he got home, he mowed and edged, and helped in the garage. This was amazing and different.
2. The gift of summer school, and the stability it's giving to our finances.
3. Mom and dad living so close now.
4. Coffee
5. Pets
6. God